LMS was my effort to celebrate the good in life because I felt like I was living in a world where I was constantly barraged with negativity and I wanted a place where I could revel in what made me happy and inspired me.
I'll admit I didn't always achieve my goal. Sometimes I've been sarcastic and snippy. I hope I've never been mean. I deviated from my stated mission to talk politics, although frankly, the campaign of 2008 inspired me in more ways than I can probably verbalize now.
LMS has, at times, been my own personal journal. The irony there is that I stopped writing a journal when my journals were subpoenaed in 1992. Seriously. So it's a little bit ironic that this incredibly public blog has sometimes been a journal to me. That said, I've never shared anything too personal. That stuff says inside me.
Somewhere along the way, I lost my drive to write my blog. But that doesn't fully explain it though. What I lost was my belief that focussing on all the good and inspirational would make the world better.
Maybe you've noticed, but I've been sad. I've been so incredibly sad. So much has happened the past few months that I can't talk about on LMS and it's broken my heart more than I thought it could ever be broken. And the thought of writing LMS was too overwhelming because, frankly, I simply didn't have anything to say that could be said publicly, much less out loud.
So I killed Little Merry Sunshine. I thought it was the right thing to do at the time. Now, I'm not so sure. I don't know if I can start writing this blog again or if its time is simply gone.
But five years ago today, I started Little Merry Sunshine and it's gotten me through some really dark times. So I figured that, at least, deserved some acknowledgement.